Need to become a Journalist...??

Do I really want to become a ‘Journalist’…??
Yes
Why..? What I’m going to do there actually..??
I really don’t know.
These are the questions passing through my mind for last some days, weeks and months or may be a year or two…! I really want to become a journalist and I really don’t know for what; I don’t think this is a great confusion of my life where there is a girl in my class says “you know, I’m living with a lot of confusions in my life for last 22 years.” Here the joke is ‘she is just 22year old’ and her confusions might be started since the first day of her in this earth.
I’m living in a country with largest democracy where people still suffering from poverty and illiteracy after sixty year of independence from British colonialism, political scams and corruptions (e.g. cwg, 2g spectrum) keep on growing day by day, feudalism and exploitation are persists, each and every hour a ‘Dalit’ women getting raped, discrimination between people in terms of cast and religion exists, honour killings increasing per hour, states fighting for natural resources, teacher’s hand get chopped by preparing question paper and says that disrespect the religion, social activists need to close their mouth to avoid sue of sedition, RTI act killed 19 social activists, transgender are exploited on behalf of disbelief, people living in naxalism zones with bravery, 74% of population live in 638,365 different villages, 4th most populous urban agglomeration in the World “Mumbai” and country growing with great economical strategy (8.9 GDP rate & 4.16 trillion dollars GNP rate 5th in the world), IT, outsource, Military & Defense , development and agriculture and more. Yes, this realization and understanding about my country and its situations guide me to journalism.
Now the time is arrived to take a decision on my specialization. Yes, it is Television journalism; I have to have a strong hand with non-tremble fingers and powerful voice for that….!!!

Darkness f Marina

4-April-2010 Sunday, 5.30pm, Marina Beach, Madras
Marina beach is a big entertainment zone of Madras. I think it’s very necessary  for us to understand the 'hidden' and 'popular' entertainment bustle of Marina Beach. I really don’t know how the two eyes of mine noticed that.
“As usual the sky looked beautiful with clouds, some were hued red n yellow because of the twilight. Walking to the Marina beach on week off days has now became a part of our life. My room mate also accompanies me. The cascading waves of Marina is really pretty, a beautiful gift by Mother Nature,which actually attracts a thousands to the seashore I believe. There are a very few ships anchored in the sea and they look like huge sea monsters.”
6.00pm. Marina
“Traffic of Anna Square (Marina) becomes screwed on Sunday sundowns. The horn of vehicles are powerful than the noise of sea waves. We could hear it even when we are three hundred meters from the seashore. The sun is now really close to the horizon. The beauty and serenity of the ocean never looks like it has swept away many lives last year in the form of tsunami.”
6.50 pm. Marina
“The Indian sun is completely erased by the darkness in the horizon. This is the right time for us to smoke a cigarette. So we came back to the beach road and bought three cigarettes. Started searching some safe place to smoke, otherwise we will get fined Rs. 500 due to public offense.”
7.20 pm. Marina, first Cigarette lighted
“The first puff of smoke flew around the air from the lighted cigarette; our living style of Madras was the topic to discuss. We both are 6k paid employees of BPO companies. We’ve bee in this city for last 6 Month, enjoyed different experiences; the month end hunger, cinemas, late night roaming after drinking, Spencer plaza dating, and night shift job, irate customers, ticketless travel in suburban trains, usual T Nagar visits, interviews in different companies, taste of self cooking, Besent nagar and Marina visits etc.”
7.29 pm. Marina, Second Cigarette lighted
“I could notice there certain things are going on before us and my eyes are become so closer to that. An elder person is keep on roaming and moving towards the person who sitting there in the beach sand as single. Their chats are taking max one minute, some of them are accepting and so many not. The persons those who are not agree with him is looking around and looking behind of his walking for few seconds and vacating the place. He never goes to the people who are sitting with their family.”
7.36 pm. Marina, third Cigarette lighted
“Big puffs of smoke come out through my lips after lightning the third cigarette by me. Obviously I can’t stay there even a single minute without sharing the matter to my buddy. I explained that to him and that makes him to give a big look in the environs. Now I see some ladies coming and one of them going to sit with a fellow who is there sitting alone. And I can see the eagerness of other ladies to go and settled somewhere. Yup, probably the old man looks the age about seventy working as a broker between the persons and lady sex workers.”
7.39 pm. Marina, the half burned cigarette piece throws into the sand
“Now we both are planned to make a walk throughout the area to understand what happening exactly. Observation of few minutes made us understand a kind of utilization of our country’s public places, of course beaches. I never expected that Marina will be the lap of such rubbish matters. The lady sex workers are there for satisfying the sexual needs of the people who are sitting there and they must be paid rupees hundred or fifty. The role of the old man is a shortcut-key to the application. Here some people are ready to satisfy others sexual needs even in most beautiful tourist places, only they need a little darkness.”

“We are ready to blame each and everything by telling these words “adoption of western culture”. But I don’t ever think this is an adoption of western culture and this may create a bad picture about the country which always own “Rich Culture in the earth.”